Thoughts and ideas

Peaches Geldof grow up you silly bitch!

2008-08-17T22:24:00.002+01:00

So 19 year old Peaches Geldof has married a 23 year old musician Max Drummey a man she has only known for a couple of weeks at the Little White Wedding Chapel in Vegas and in the process dumping her other boyfriend in a truly bitchy way! She’s so funny and a fully functioning train wreak almost every other month!.

She’s tried her hand a shoplifting,stealing thousands of pounds worth of designer clobber and during one photo shoot walking off with the clothes she was wearing during the photo session!. oh and hey lets keep the family tradition alive and admit to drug use and addition and the icing on the cake “lets do an overdose”!

I do like her as a person and when she has been interviewed in the past she has appeared eloquent and intelligent and a likable girl but honestly all these latest events indicate a severely troubled soul and a person with immense psychological scaring!

I wish her well and hope that that everything turns out ok and that her career hasn’t been hindered by these foolish events. Her mother Paula Yates was always stylish and vibrant and an amazing person and an eighties icon!!. SO peaches here’s hoping that your life doesn’t follow your mothers path and end in such a tragic way!?.

DELETING MY ACCOUNT!

2008-08-17T08:48:00.002+01:00

THIS ACCOUNT WILL BE DELETED WITHIN ONE MONTH, I AM NOW BLOGGING AT mynewblog

Why I hate stickam!

2008-08-11T19:34:00.001+01:00

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My feelings on Recent events on stickam, the haters and sex pests!

My hot changing room sex session!.

2008-08-07T19:10:00.001+01:00

This is so hot and I am still dreaming of the event days after it happened, what you ask am I talking about?. …… well I had the steamiest sex session ever and it all took place with-in a clothes shop changing room!. I had decided to try on some clothes which were little summery things and I was in my underpants when the curtain flew open and this crazy sexy man stood looking at me!. I asked him if he was ok and he said that he was sure he had left his wallet in my changing room somewhere.”Lets have a look” I said and he joined me in looking for his lost wallet, the room was small and left no room for two people but his anxiety was infectious, so we continued to search for his wallet.

I continued to search in my underpants and when I stood up to turn around he grabbed me and…… ..

….after 15 minutes both of us were satisfied and looking rather red in our faces and it was only then did I realise that the whole incident had been fabricated because the expression on his face told me a different story to the one before,I had been a object for his lust and he was determined to have full satisfaction.

I only hope that things continue along this line in the future and I have doubled visits to this particular clothes shop hoping for a repeat performance!

From gay to straight the Jackie Clune way!.

2008-08-07T19:07:00.002+01:00

Last night on The Richard and Judy Show the performer/writer/presenter Jackie Clune described to the rickety presenters her feelings about her past lesbian lifestyle and then went on to explain that woman are firmly in the past and her future now lies in the arms of her husband and father to her four children!

OK!... she then went on to say that she also feels that for a number of homosexuals sexual orientation is a choice and for her she became a lesbian as part of a political package!?.

So during the period 1988-2000 her life and stage act which relied entirely on the fact that she claimed in a political fashion statement way to be a "lesbian" was in fact a blatant and shameful lie!!. I personally don't think I could live with myself knowing this fact, its like during that period she didn't exist,it was all a silly little dream!.

All this ex gay thing really creeps me out and I don't believe for one minute that these faux heterosexuals can keep their shoddy act up for a lengthy period of time and when the façade begins to crumble not only with they be hurt but everyone else involved in their foolish make-believe world will also be!.

Recent pointless murders in England

2008-07-07T19:16:00.002+01:00

This is going to be a quick blog really because I am pushed for time and I feel so hyper and NOT focused so maybe this blog will sound sketchy?.

I am beginning to feel so ashamed of England because of all these recent stabbings that have occurred, they seem so random and vicious and senseless, the case of Ben Kinsella brother to Eastenders star Brooke Kinsella,who was stabbed outside a bar in the early hours by teenagers!. The brutal killing of two French students Laurent Bonomo and Gabriel Ferez, who were stabbed in total 242 times and burned to death, a teenager who was tied to a tree and forced to drink petrol and then set on fire!, and I could literally name countless more victims of these incredibly evil and pointless murders!.

I don’t know which direction this country in going but the government really need to analyse the structure of its police force and legal system and until it does these killings will continue because there seems to be no guidelines or law to protect the innocent citizens of this country!.

I am stuck dumb each time the news reports another incident and can only feel saddened and ashamed of the place that I have lived all my life.

Kill all spammers NOW!

2008-06-25T18:47:00.002+01:00

Another vicious devil week has passed by smothering me in life excrement and leaving me with a pooh stained body!. The start of last week began with someone hacking into my hotmail account and sending all my contacts spam spam pissing spam!… so embarrassing and paranoid inducing!. People like that in my opinion should be instantly killed with a knife up the bum!… leaving to bleed to death in a pool of their bastard spam blood!. I had hours of mental and emotional turmoil wondering if they had infected my lush hot black macbook with a virus or worse maybe they had accessed my bank account and where wanking themselves with excitement in Harvey Nicks or getting their ugly retard faces lifted and botoxed in Harley street!.

The next incident was maybe not so stressful because it concerned my wayward sister who invariably goes missing when another boyfriend for this month takes here away for a few days. My poor mum was phoning for days and days and could only leave messages on her voicemail . After 4 days my mum was crying down the phone to me and I was literally hours away from calling the police and claiming her a missing person!. I knew she would turn up eventually but my mother was extremely concerned, then my sister phoned her without a care in the world later in the day and said that the mobile my mum was calling was now in the trash and she was using a new number but why had she forgot to pass the number onto my mother!??……..
I am NOT surprised by this because my sister is self obsessed and selfish…. its all part of her genetic makeup to be so bloody stupid!.

I am so glad that these sorry episodes are over and are now part of history, so maybe some new exciting adventures are on the horizon…. like all these hot men who want to sleep with me and use me for their dirty sweaty ways mmmmm…now there’s a thought!.

Please help!!! my friend keeps bleeding!

2008-05-26T16:16:00.001+01:00

Well recently my friend has been bleeding and there seems to be no reason why such a thing such be happening and although he is in no immediate danger he would like the incidents stopped!. The bleeding is not constant and has only happened twice before and because no accidents have happened to cause it we are all baffled as to why this should happen at all!.
They always seem to come to light when he his lying down and never when he is standing up…and is NOT a result of any white fluid that comes out of his mouth!!!
If you have any answers to his problem please comment in the box below, we both thank you in advance!

Im not a heartless bitch!

2008-05-20T19:30:00.000+01:00

OK... quick update.

Washing machine dies ****URGH!****HOOVER blows up ****BANG**** then broadband crashes ****CRASH!**** and the neighbours stole my portable washing unit****BOTTOM FEEDERS****

[------------------------------------>LIFE SUCKS!<-------------------------------------]

At least for a moment but then the realisation that I do not live in any of the recent affected areas devastated by extreme freak weather conditions brings back to me the actual reality of my situation and I am thankful for all the little things in life and that I should not over emphasise materialistic objects!

hOMoLickEr ©

Myspace friend needs medical help

2008-05-04T12:22:00.000+01:00

The bank holiday started with me receiving an email from a myspace "friend" who I had been chatting with for maybe about a year and everything was fine up until about a month ago when I began to feel that I was only being use for tips on how to photoshop!. The email that I received was a reply from one that I had sent the previous day where I had said in a joking and playful way that maybe one day he would be as good as me in photoshop!

It was never meant to be taken seriously but because the person has addiction issues and he claims is bi-polar he completely took what I had said literally . He called me arrogant and self centered which is a joke considering all the advice i had given him.... I replied that seven years of art training at university I should be a little more accomplished than someone who at the time was a homeless alcoholic.

He now thinks he's David Lechappelle because he has been snapping away for a year, this is what really pissed off because I had to apply myself at art school because at the time my father was being treated for cancer and the pressure of final show was tremendous, I feel that art saved my life and gave me a direction and I really put my heart and soul into the Degree course and to have someone who I have never met consider himself qualified to be on the same level as me artistically.

He is still extremely psychologically unstable individual and needs to think about where he is going in life because at the moment he is in a cul de sac with no where to go! I regret wasting my time and exposing my emotions with him but as with all things in life you learn from your mistakes, or at least you should.

Crash a film about you!.

2008-04-21T20:35:00.005+01:00

Yesterday I found hidden at the back of my dvd collection "Crash" which for some reason I had failed to watch, so I thought it was about time I watched it. All I can say is that Crash is an amazing film which deals with issues that face every single one of use in modern society,its a mirror of our neurosis and failures and provides no sugar coated solutions.

The film which starred Matt Dillon,Brendan Fraser,Sandra Bullock,Nona Gaye and the gorgeous Ryan Phillippe (who wouldn't). I really enjoyed the film although challenging because of the fact it deals with racial issues and the friction between people who forced into similar environments.

To conclude because of the way the narrative unfolds you can only feel a more appreciative about the little things in life and the things which you hold close to your heart and although the film as a whole is depressing as a result is you feel thankful for what you have!.

After I had watched the film I went out and photographed a single beautiful flower ****PEACE****

****Gorgeous and edible****

Madonna Stinks!.

2008-04-11T20:01:00.002+01:00

I dont know why it is but I REALLY HATE MADONNA!... I feel that she really only uses styles and people who are 'up and coming", she also behaves like a parasite feeding of current influential people who are cutting edge and creatively productive.

Things like.... oooh lesbian chic is in... I am NOW having an affair with a woman.. YAWN!... disco's back ... (glitter,glitter) lets use gay lifestyle.. STRIKE A POSE......VOGUE!

She does nothing interesting and looks like a granny on speed, this is purely a personal view because I know that millions of people get great pleasure from her, but I literally hate her and that bland and toneless singing voice of hers.

Because she has got old she has to try harder to entertain and be interesting but because of this she ends up looking desperate and pathetic and I feel that it would be a more viable option to retire and give us connoisseurs of quality music a deserved rest from her attempt at singing oooh and trying to be SEXY???..

NO WAY on this earth is Madonna sexy or sensual , not with that gym generated body of hers when its twisting and turning around under that glitterball of life! GIVE UP NOW!! its time to sign in to the geriatric ward!

***Too late shes just released another diabolical din but this time with the edible Justin Timerlake... thats the one thing she has... excellent taste in MEN!!!.***

April snow showers!

2008-04-06T12:07:00.002+01:00

Well it was a shock to open my curtains this morning and see a heavy blanket of snow covering the ground. I love how snow can magically turn everything into a wonderful fantasy world beautiful and serene, things change and morph into other forms hidden beneath the freezing grasp of the glistening flakes!. I nice change from the depressing rain and the dreary damp.

Naomi Campbell witch without a broomstick!

2008-04-04T19:53:00.001+01:00

Apparently super bitch Naomi Campbell didnt like the fact that her luggage had been lost by BA airline, when she heard about this issue which she considered to be life threatening she flew into a rage and the police had to be called!. When the police arrived she continued her diva antics and spat in a police officers face and was promptly arrested!.

She was over heard to say that the specific piece of luggage contained certain essential fashion items need for a job she was hired for. Maybe the fashion police detonated her luggage because it contained eye corrosive materials which if worn and exposed to the public would cause severe mental distress!

The old bag just needs a slap from the reality boys and then given 100 years hard labour in a knicker factory. Lets face it all the drugs she takes must have blurred fashion world and reality and its no wonder she off the rails when no one will tell her the hard facts of life!

No amount of makeup, clothes or style advice can give you a personality or an

understanding of humanity!!.

David Beckham a gay shame!

2008-04-03T20:16:00.002+01:00

I am so amazed that people call that idiot David Beckham a "GAY ICON", he's no more a gay icon than I am. He thinks he's a fashion leader when all he does is stand there and let his stylist dress him in whatever freebie he has been given. This is not what a gay icon is all about, his looks are all but gone now and when he tries to convey any thoughts that he may have he ends up looking like a stroke victim! BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!.

In fact the only gay thing about him is that he's always got a fist up his arse from his stupid skeleton wife Victoria who defines the term "FASHION VICTIM!". And in my opinion has never looked remotely beautiful or stylish and has a facial deformity called retard dermatitis!.

The two go together like shit and piss and both deserve each other but what they do not deserve are the titles GAY and FASHION icons! Further more and this is so unbelievable ,Roberto Cavalli the fashion designer has taken advice from Victoria regarding using Amy Winehouse for his label model, nothing wrong with that but why is Roberto listening to her!!! Has he not got a mind or style thoughts himself???.

Victoria wearing Marc Jacobs (say no more).

Old age approaching

2008-04-01T20:13:00.002+01:00

The start of the week was very nice because I had won a small amount of money on the bonus ball in the lottery. It was a very welcome surprise but its a shame that its not every week that i am given a money up-lift!. So today is the 1st of April and I will be 43 on the 15th of this month, I cant say that I am looking forward to it but as the years move on I am less stressed when the day arrives. Years ago I would be catatonic and in a drunken stupor on my birthday!!. But its true that age does smooth out the roughness and mellows the fevered brow of panic!.

I do envy the young who have the blinkers of innocence firmly attached and who fail to realise the fragility of life when spiraling out of control on alcohol or drugs and where sex is considered an accompaniment to both requiring No commitment or restrictions!! Hopefully I can fulfill some of my goals and maybe this year I will achieve a little success with my creative work. Not that I am ignored in that area its just I would like to be recognised more fully and generally to a wider audience!. Fingers crossed everyone!

Quickly now..its the weekend!

2008-03-28T19:48:00.000Z

Well its the weekend again and hopefully this weekend will be more productive and creatively fulfilling than the last!. My energy levels should be around 80% and my mind more focused which will all help with my imagination and stimulate my thought processes!.

I'm hoping that the planned shopping trip to Chester will also be aesthetically pleasing to my eyes (hot horny muscle boys) and easy on my wallet (bargains). But you never really know do you, plans always go a stray and I feel that sometimes you should really" just go with the flow"!.

I will keep my finger crossed that my weekend with be sexy and exciting and all the things that really get your pulse racing!!!!. X

ALERT!...PSYCHOPATH!.

2008-03-25T19:23:00.001Z

Some people should NOT be let out in public or have access to the internet, why?.... well this guy on flickr started to comment on my images and from the start it was excessive and too intense to be from someone mentally stable!. His comments were rarely coherent and verged on ramblings from a mad man.

He proclaimed me to be a GENIUS , a new light in art and a tour de force, all true all sure... lol... but from someone who has never met me and his only understanding of me is from quick views of my work on flickr! .. well it left me feeling angry!. He had also spent SIX HOURS writing a testimonial for me which never connected to me or my work at all and seemed to be a vessel for his fantasy vomit!

After I rejected the testimonial he proceeded to delete all the comments that he had made regarding my work and then he went as far as to delete himself from my friends list!! He said he appreciates art but how can he when he doesn't understand himself...**** ART EQUALS LIFE**** .........

I tire of people like that who wear their neurosis with pride, we all have to deal with issues in life ,thats all part of life, but if your not going to learn from them and move on then ... then you are truly LOST!. and DOOMED to REPEAT!.

CHANNEL NEUROSIS INTO GREAT ART!!.

hOMoLickEr

Easter Virus.

2008-03-24T15:43:00.002Z

Being easter I thought that I would have plenty of time to do photoshop work but little did I know that I would be caught in the grip of a virus that would debilitate me and prevent me from doing anything creative and productive! So its been THREE DAYS and I haven't been able to focus on anything other than my self pity, literally forced to my bed at times because of fatigue and fever!

Today is the first day of the Easter break that I have felt better and energized and with a will to create and visualise. I ventured outside this morning and looked at the first flowers of spring which had bravely pushed through the hard frosty surface and looked towards the dull gray sky. They are the sign and trumpet call of things to come and cheer the soul during this un-certain month.

The hateful male species!

2008-03-06T19:47:00.002Z

I started this night feeling really good and happy and looking forward to doing some serious Photoshop work. That all changed when I logged in to youtube and watched gaygods video about a US solider who had thrown a little puppy over a cliff!!!... my heart sank and I google searched to check for more details and to my disbelief everything gaygod had said was true!.

The video was on youtube but has now been remove but can still be seen because someone has copied it and re-posted it!!. this all comes after a 25 year old mother was spiked with a drug and then raped by a group of lads who filmed it all with a mobile phone and then soon after uploaded it to youtube! . IT WAS VIEWED 600 TIMES!!!.

Youtube are constantly being criticized by gay people because of the homophobic abuse they receive, I also was a victim of homophobic comments, but youtube DO NOTHING!. They seem to think that they should take NO RESPONSIBILITY for what is uploaded to the site," just let anyone upload anything they like".."hey lets kill a stranger and film it for youtube it will be a big hit and generate mass views" well ... thats all that matters isn't it!!!!

I am left feeling so sad and depressed with the world and all the freaks that inhabit it and here's an observation, who are the perpetrators of the first two incidents ,yeah thats right HETEROSEXUAL MEN in BOTH cases!!! Most of the hurt and pain in the world is caused by the heterosexual man with their stupid grunting behaviour!

I think that most of the female and gay population will agree with me there!!!!!!!.

Just when I thought it was safe to open my eyes!

2008-02-10T19:57:00.001Z

Just when I thought that things really couldn't get worse I happen
to stubble upon this laughable image from Instinct's magazine online blog "Watercooler". The offending item of clothing is by Prada and according to Ms. Prada..... "the collection was revenge on men for the social and sartorial contortions they impose on women.". Bloody hell!!.. sweet revenge at that!.. the trousers even lack a fly!.. clearly not to be worn in Tesco's then!.
The look on the models face says it all.... bet he's thinking f**king
Prada bitch making me look like a t**t in front of all my mates,next she will want my balls!! Actually thinking about it, i'm with Miuccia Prada on this one, women have been fooled into thinking that to look sexy they should walk around in ridiculously high heels and wear breath stopping corsets, so Go Miuccia make more of these clothes for men and get them stocked in Top Man!!, they should sell out in seconds!! ;-)

instinctmag

Too hideous for my eyes!

2008-02-08T15:36:00.000Z

Some people need more fashion advice than others because I just don't know what this person was thinking when he decided to venture out in this hideous outfit! He's less fashion victim more style retard!
I'm sorry the so called "man bags" or whatever they are called now ,may look relatively cool on the catwalk but in a social situation they look ridiculously queer in the extreme!. And why the hell is he wearing those shinny cardboard shorts with BLUE SOCKS and WHITE TRAINERS!??
I'm sorry mate dressed like that you just look like a right prick, which is a shame because you could look great with a little style advice!.
The picture is from AXM magazine and this months issue is packed full of excellent tips on how to look good and also contains an fabulous section on fashion, its one of the best gay magazines out at the moment!. ***FASHION DISASTER CHECK IT OUT!!!***

AXM MAG

My sister Belinda

2008-02-06T20:06:00.000Z

Today would have been my sister's 50th birthday if she would have lived, she died at the age of five because she had a hole in the heart!.The doctors said she was born 10 years too soon,and because of advances in surgical techniques (the procedure is now done routinely with key hole surgery) she most likely would be alive now!.

I would have loved to have had the chance to have got to know her and I do feel a connection to her and always wish that I could talk to her and form a bond!. I went with my mum today to the church yard to lay flowers on the grave where she is at rest with my father. Life changes so fast so try to live life to the full and take time to really appreciate it while you can!.
Belinda you will forever be in my heart! XX

Photoshop come back to me!

2008-02-04T16:15:00.000Z

Since moving from windows to mac I have been left with NO PHOTOSHOP to work on, only elements 4 which is very basic. So today I gritted my teeth and said a prayer for my bank account and ordered CS3 (£560:00)from amazon. The price is very expensive but hopefully will be worth it in the long run, its an essential tool for me and one I can’t live without.
With my friend in San Francisco we are embarking on a project where we will each in turn decide an subject matter for a photographic image which we will then post on flickr when we have both finished!.
I am sure that my individual style will continue to rein and produce the very strong Homolicker trademark in each and everyone of the images, although I am not regarding the continuing project as a war of creativity but more of a creative copulation,playing off each other and generating art through thoughts and ideas!.

My corrupted gay gene!!

2008-02-02T20:49:00.000Z

I have known this about myself for sometime now and its something that I am ashamed and embarrassed about because rules and genetics state that every gay man has the knowledge and expertise required to use his in-built cruising mode!. The fact is I have somehow been given a corrupt copy and every time I try to use it a flashing warning sign states, “please install the correct program and try again!".

Flirting I have a degree in, whether my victim is male or female or transgendered , I flirt on 100% power !!. I do love to flirt and I know that in certain situations you can gain a lot from it, whether it is sex, free moisturizer , upgrades on software,coffee,herpes,anal tearing or whatever you can think of!?.

Today I saw a good looking blond guy walking past me and our eyes meet briefly and I knew what I should have done because I had read somewhere that you should wait three seconds and then turn back to see if they are looking back at you, did i do it?... hell no!!,I wanted too but it all seemed a little bit” porn scene” for me! And there lies my real problem, I am so up tight and hell bent on maintaining an aloof appearance that such behaviour is beneath me!

Actually this has only just occurred to me, I have no problem with cruise control in other areas of the country, only in the town of Chester are my abilities to cruise somehow hindered, ......maybe by a force field of purity!!...... or am I simply talking bollocks again!!

Any advice would be extremely welcome so feel free to comment and help a wounded and sensitive homosexual! X

Racist and ignorant!

2008-01-28T20:14:00.000Z

To say that I am annoyed would be an understatement after todays events, the reason why I am so upset is because an acquaintance of mine shocked me with this statement “ I am NOT RACIST but I DO NOT believe that black and white people should sleep together and have children!” ???. I said to him that YES you are racist and also ignorant!, he said that its his opinion and he has the right to his opinion , I replied that his opinion was wrong and he should not voice his views because he was upsetting me and making himself into an idiot! He also couldn’t understand my reaction!!
What a total freak of nature he is, to think that people actually believe that they have the right to voice their half-witted rants and not get challenged over it! It sickens me and disgusts me in a way that brings out the killer in me! Im sorry but people like him should be wiped of the face of the earth!
This is not what I need to be exposed to and his vile comments should stay in his stupid little brain and I feel that with this hatred for a minority group he should be eligible for the gas chamber!

The winter is murder on my fashion sense!

2008-01-21T19:57:00.000Z

I hate the rain more so than any other weather condition because it makes me feel oppressed and depressed all at the same time, its only in the last five years that excessive rain fall has become a problem in the UK,and I know we need rain for environmental reasons but other than that it causes more problems than it solves!.

Not only is it destroying property and causing heartache and possible death but the effect on the fashion conscious is catastrophic and I know that fashion is created specifically for the winter months but its all about covering up!, yes a blessing for the over weight and ugly crowd but what about the beautiful healthy sexy fashionistas who want to be proud and show off their hard worked for bodies, the winter period is nothing less than exile from admiration and adulation!!

No one has the time to admire anyones fashion sense when its pouring down with rain ,its all a case of running to the next starbucks. Life is really hard in the winter months when you have to grit your teeth and hope for gods help and guidance to lead you into the light and warmth of spring when you can discard those drab ugly garments and emerge wearing those fabulous traffic stopping, “I’m full of life and up for hot sex” clothes that you know, make you who you are and what you stand for ….and in the end what is better in life than that!?.

Amour

2008-01-08T19:35:00.001Z

Amour, originally uploaded by timslim1.

Homolicker doing his magic on this image and recreating another classic!

faggot!!

2008-01-03T20:45:00.001Z

faggot!!, originally uploaded by timslim1.

I am really pleased with this image and I think that it says everything positive about being gay and proud!

Someone tried to KILL ME!

2008-01-01T17:10:00.000Z

Saturday morning I experience an attempt on my life, I regard it in such terms because I can not begin to understand any rational explanation other than in the abstract!.
I was walking along the footpath and I made a decision to cross the road so I started to move in front of a parked car thinking on one was inside, but to my horror the car started to move and stopped when my hands hit the cars bonnet!. I looked inside and there was a man at the wheel looking straight ahead so I moved back on the footpath and he drove off down the road!.
No explanation or apologies just a attempt on an my life!..the old people across the road were amazed and I could tell that they were as shock at the event as me!.
You would think that I was living in NYC and not the sleepy Roman town of Chester!!.

Censorship and my underwear.

2007-12-27T15:30:00.000Z

My to do list!

2007-12-27T11:39:00.000Z

After three days of shopping before Christmas and all day cooking on Christmas day ,boxing day was spent relaxing and having some personal time!. Today I am going to decide which areas of my life need changing and if any areas could be built upon, (Formally known as New Years resolutions).

I need to upgrade my exercise routine, I generally do some at least half an hour for three days a week, but maybe I need to focus on specific areas of my body?. Also I need to cut down or stop drinking and then look at my eating plan and alter my diet, hopefully this will knock a few years off my skin and "bring healthy back!!".

My other resolution will have to be to devour as many men as possible, I have an intense addiction to the male species and literally get an tense erection just thinking about them!. This I find strange considering that in my youth I had a fairly restricted sex life!, now that I am older I have tastes that are borderline animalistic, and I have constant fantasies about group sex!

Time will tell if I check off any of these "to do tasks!"

It could not be any worse.

2007-12-22T07:26:00.001Z

Our freezer has stopped working and with Christmas nearly on top of us and all the previous days supplies on the verge of being destroyed things couldn't possibly get any worse.... OR COULD THEY!?. I am beginning to think I am cursed by a demon for all my sins during the last year. But thinking on those lines what about Amy Winehouse and her
behaviour over the last year, surely her x-mas is doomed and her freezer MUST DIE ALSO!!??. Oh yeah ..... now I remember she is suffering!!.

Last days of christmas shopping!

2007-12-21T19:14:00.001Z

Today I had to go Christmas food shopping and it really was a nightmare navigating through all the bodies and heaving trolleys!!. At one point my own trolley accidentally collided with someones ankle and he spun around and said "its alright I have two legs!???", Good god, it was an accident and he's lucky that I was in a placid mood because if my mood was major bitch mode I would have bitten his balls off!!.

Everything afterwards went to plan and all the goods are now in the our store for the coming nuclear blast! (Christmas period) . My appointment at the dentist went relatively ok, I only need one filling and he said my gums are excellent!. Must be all that cock sucking!!.

Planning to do quite a bit of work on my macbook and hopefully I will post a youtube video and some of my new photographic work ,which fingers crossed will be just as popular as the previous work that I did!?.

Truly hateful behaviour!

2007-12-15T20:45:00.000Z

While traveling to Chester today on the bus I sat I quickly down because the bus was quite full at this point, at the next stop two young girl quickly kissed and one of them got on the bus and started to look for her money!. At this point the man behind me began saying to what I presumed to be his wife/girlfriend that “she has just fucking kissed a girl and now the stupid bitch is looking for her money,why didn’t she have it ready?”, she then walked slowly to her seat and he began saying “look at that thick fucking bitch now!”. I felt sick and could feel his extreme HATRED drifting over me!!. I could also smell his intense alcoholic breathe!!.The next unknown victims were also female and the only crime that they committed was being allowed on the bus after the bus driver had shut the doors!. “Fucking all the luck in the world” was his remark! The thing that really got to me had to be his intense hatred for these women,he seemed to hate people and everything about life!. I thought maybe that he was a country yokel who was having a hard time with the christmas period and all the shoppers!??. I thought about turning around and confronting him but after the last weeks negative incidents I had second thoughts,but if his remarks had been heard by any of these girls I would most certainly have unleashed my bitch mouth and attacked him till he crawled back under the rock that he had come from !When the bus reached the destination I got off before him and observed him leaving the bus and to my horror this man had been traveling ALONE so he MUST have been talking to HIMSELF!?. HAPPY CHRISTMAS PSYCHOPATH!

The week that was terrible!

2007-12-14T20:14:00.000Z

Looking back at the past week I do not know how I could experience so much bad luck that my only conclusion is that I must have possessed an elevated amount of bad karma!. Last saturday I had to trim my christmas shopping down because a relative wanted me to collect a coat for them in Chester!..I could not understand the request really on the grounds that they own a car and it would have been much simpler for them to get the coat rather than asking me. Usually this wouldn’t have bothered me but being christmas I wanted to finish buying my gifts!, It only made my life harder and moodier!.
Then on Monday when I returned home I was informed that the over-weight coal man had nearly dispatched his load ( sounds extremely sexual) through the window, having regained his grip he then cracked a windowsill and loosened a pipe!!!..( drunk in charge of a bag of dirty fuel!!! ). He either leaves the bags of coal in the yard or goes on a diet or the other option ……I discontinue my weekly agreement for fuel!.
Ok now the ultimate in absolute bad luck and this happened the day after the coal incident,so my nerves were already shattered. Tuesday was the day that my house was nearly burgled and my sanity would be corroded beyond salvation!.. A man had tried to force his way into the house via two windows but had given up presumably because of time-span and extremely tight window frames!!.
I now feel unsafe in my own house and I sleep so lightly that a farting cat would wake me up in an instant!, the possessions in my house our my own and the thought that someone could take them away just because he wanted to makes me nauseous and paranoid!.

Ginch Gonch threatened legal action if I didn't remove youtube video!

2007-12-02T10:38:00.000Z

Last Thursday I posted a video on youtube expressing my personal views about ginch gonch's underwear which I had bought several months ago. Because I had failed to read the washing instructions on the label the colours on the first pair that I washed all ran together!. It was my own fault I know but really for hygiene reasons I think that you will all agree that you need to wash underwear in warm water!.
This I explained in the video and I then preceded to recommend another companies brand, which is owned by a friend and in my personal opinion is of superior style and quality than ginch gonch!. The video was up on youtube for ONE DAY, during which Ginch Gonch sent an email to my friends web site saying that if he did not get me to remove the video off youtube that they would take legal action!!!.
I could understand if I had blatantly slandered their companies name but a simple video expressing my own views about a product that I had bought is pathetic in the extreme!
Further more and this is what I can not comprehend is the action Ginch Gonch took in going through all my blogs and emailing certain posts back to my friend!!!. EXCUSE ME!...this is taking things out of all reason and just goes to show everyone one that no one is immune to BULLYING!!!.

Unbelievable

2007-11-19T19:20:00.000Z

Apparently celebrity's are posting videos on youtube campaigning against bullying in a response to the national anti bullying week. This is fine and i'm against any form of bullying regardless what the situation is but I find the fact that youtube a web site that in my opinion condones bullying in every form, is the platform these celebrities have chosen to present their campaign!!

You only have to read any gay persons comment box to find some form of homophobic abuse and these comments range from "DIE OF AIDS", "GAY BASTARD", "SHIT STABBER"!!!!! and so on...Youtube DO NOTHING!...the perpetrators are left to continue their bullying,hiding behind (like most bully's do) a barrier of some kind, be it a computer screen or a gang!! These comments really disturb me because if channelled towards the young it can have a detrimental effect upon them mentally and physically!!.

Only this week Sophie Foxley a young girl suffering from leukaemia received death threats posted on her blog which she used to help her with the illness. This is really unbelievable and upset me when the story hit the news, one post said "me and my husband are going to kill you"! WTF!..THESE ARE GROWN ADULTS!?!?!..my god! what a world we live in!!

STOP ALL BULLYING NOW!!!! and that includes you YOUTUBE!!

A day to forget!

2007-11-18T19:52:00.000Z

Its been a really strange day today..Firstly I got up with a slight hangover which didn't initially hinder my day but the events which unfolded contributed to fanning a feeble hangover into a forest fire!!!.Let me explain...I arrived in Chester this morning at 11.00 to buy a macbook which is my Christmas gift to myself, all excitedly I said to the assistant that I would like to buy the laptop only to be told that they were out of stock!!..why was it on view in the first place if it was not available to buy !!??.
So I walked over to the Apple store nearby and I was informed by the notice that they do not open on Sundays!. Bloody silly if you ask me since Christmas is approaching and all that vital trade on Sunday will be lost,so to cut a long story short I returned to the first store and aked them to order it from another branch and have it delivered to the Chester branch for me to pick it up on Saturday!
Anyway after all these incidents my self created headache was having a ball in my brain and loving every minute of it!,the weather was ball shrinkingly evil and the available daylight resembled the glow from a candle, extremely dismal and depressing by all standards!

Sony or Apple

2007-11-13T18:57:00.000Z

I have been thinking for the past couple of weeks which lap top I might like to buy before Christmas, the contenders are Sony Vaio or Apple Mac. I have always used a Windows system and the thought of changing to mac is daunting but because I use lap tops for editing photographs ,the reviews that I have read all seem to indicate that a mac is a better system for this task!.
Price wise they are more expensive and I am looking to spend about 900 pounds all together, the Sony Vaio seems a better option regarding the price and the familiarity of windows tends to push me in that direction.
I am going to read more reviews and then decide but if any of you guys out there have any advice please comment me and I will be forever grateful.Thank you!.

I am what I am.......really I am!

2007-11-12T18:59:00.000Z

This happened to me today,a so called "friend" remarked that the only reason why I am gay is because I would not be able to satisfy a woman and that I would be cured of my homosexuality by the right woman!?. He also said that he could not imagine me having sex with a man!!,why he would want to is beyond me!.

His remark is totally homophobic and I know if I challenged him on this he would deny it!..the reason why I didn't confront him is purely because I feel so sorry for the mentally challenged moron!. He has been mistaken for a gay man himself because of his vanity which I must agree is homogenetic and he has a bone structure which is cocksuckerous!!, also his second marriage is on the rocks ,presumably because of his infantile behaviour and selfishness.

To not be able to imagine myself with a man is laughable in the extreme considering my past,but on this point he regards me as a puritan, not his words I can assure you,he thinks of me as a homo virgin mary!! I really feel sorry for the idiot because he has constructed a sort of virtual lifestyle for me,one that has no resemblance to the true one!

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Sunday Bloody Sunday

2007-11-04T18:51:00.000Z

All day I have been in pain with such an intense case of sinusitis that I had to go to bed and forsake any plans to do any photographic work what so ever! Its only now at 7:00 Sunday night that I am beginning to feel a little better.I have opened an account with blip.tv so I can upload videos with them,rather than using youtube which I regard as a DIRTY SITE,I hate reading comments about gay vbloggers because invariable there are numerous gay hate remarks which I find really disturbing, I received one such comment from a young girl because I had left a remark on Prez Hiltons site and she found this to be the jolt she needed to comment me and called me a STUPID FAGGOT..U NEED TO STOP LIKEIN MAN U FUC SHOT..U LIKE PEREZ HILTON I KNO THATS UR ROLE MODEL U SISSY FREAK...UR NOT WELCOM HERE...look at the typing mistakes shes such an illiterate freak and to be propelled to write such hatred, she really needs to seek help!
Today was a right off and in the aftermath I am left feeling un- productive and drained,Sundays are usually my best day to work and focus mentally on the things that need doing!..Oh well....

Male Abandonment

2007-10-31T20:04:00.000Z

well...I have been thinking strangely enough about why I do not have the ability to desire relationships that are longer than the time that it takes to pull up my pants! and only really have "drive by shags"!. This I put down to possibly two events that have occurred in my life, the first my fathers death which happened 10 years ago from cancer which left me traumatised and literally made me realise that I had to grow up and finally be a man!. The loss of my father could have resulted in a psychological reaction which in some way on a sub-conscious level made me in a way think that all men are going to leave me sooner or later, so it would be better for me to take control and not go through all the heartache and just engage in fleeting physical contacts with men!.
The second possible theory is that my only long relationship that I had which lasted two years and ended ten years ago when my boyfriend was incarcerated because of his drug manufacturing habits!..it was a blessing for me because it gave me thinking time and a new perspective on the relationship!

In retrospect I do not know what I found sexually attractive about this guy and now feel that in some way I was suffering from a lack of judgement and a blindness to the truth, the guy was hopeless in bed ,he only liked vanilla sex,made me feel like a whore, never took me out to dinner , and also had another boyfriend who also shared our bed!!!

I'm not bitter because at the Manchester Gay Pride in the Hollywood Showbar he walked in with this current boyfriend looking extremely fat and acting un-characteristically camp and his face resembled a baboons arsehole!!
So really the two events could combine to produce what I am today..sad really that I am
left feeling emotionally isolated and with emotional scaring!.

I AM GOING TO EXPLODE!

2007-10-12T20:38:00.000+01:00

RIGHT OK!!!! I am now so pissed off that I could literally smash my lap top up and think nothing of it!! WHY!..you ask ,well now to add to my ever increasing anxiety's I can no longer use youtube!!!! they keep asking me to install the flash player and of course I try to install it but it has stopped working with firefox,but it seems to work in internet explorer ok which I dont use !! I have tried for two days and I am nearing the brink of insanity and will probably explode over the weekend! IF anyone who reads this is a magician PLEASE comment with suggestions and I will gratefully give unlimited pleasure to for a WHOLE WEEK if you can successful solve the problem for me!!....or you can simply leave me a comment of love to cheer me up! XOXO

Dirty Fukker

2007-10-10T18:38:00.000+01:00

well..spent the day doing photoshop and chatting to online friends,so the day was ok...thought that I would talk about one of my friends who I met on myspace.He owns the underwear company Dirty Fukker and after reading my blog about the disaster with Ginch Gonch he sent me a message saying that he will send me a free pair of his..well not his personal pair...mmmm...would be nice though..but brand new ones...how nice is that!!!.

So today I have chatted with him about personal matters which were troubling me and because of his advice I am cheered up and more focussed!!He's a totally wonderful and caring person and glad to have him as a friend...you dont find many good and warm hearted people in this world...I can tell you. so to you J..I thank you. xx
http://www.dirtyfukkerunderwear.com/

Matteo Trisolini

2007-10-09T20:33:00.000+01:00

Right I have been thinking ..and thats an amazing thing in itself!..I am going to use this blog space to post my thoughts and ideas in a more private way! ..if thats possible?. I use myspace to post the same blog as here but because I have thoughts about people who are familiar with myspace I start to self-censorship!.Ending up with a contain blog where some things are not said and I am left feeling that I have limited myself!
I admire the way certain people like Matteo Trisolini produce their blogs, they have a familiar and personal signature (I know that is the point of a blog) but the way he writes with character is amazing and to be admired ,just like his wonderful photography and his spirit and strength and his love for the people around him!

Its a funny old world!!

2007-09-28T15:09:00.000+01:00

Well its a funny old world that I inhabit....and its annoying me just a little bit...you decide if my feelings are founded or not!?.
WHY..and im not talking in particular about gay people but people in general in the Chester area who consistently persist to be hostile towards me when in my opinion I have done little to warrant this behaviour...
Lets take a closer look at the situation and maybe this will shine a light on my dilemma!...well the main perpetrators are amazingly the queer quarter of Chester who have for as long as I can remember have regarded me with suspicion and contempt, this is a inconceivable attitude and in my honest opinion nothing more than small minded internalised homophobia!!Small little pocket of areas of people who feel threatened by anything beyond their narrow understanding of anything!...take a look in your mirrors idiots you fall into the stereotype!

The other equally mind boggling group of people who feel threatened by me..yes I now know that to be the correct word to use because there is no other reason why any female should hate a gay person other than because of territorial issues, I know this to be true because generally women love me as a person and have no issue at all,its the few who grind their smoke stained teeth at me and glare with a look that says " back off you homo he's not for the conversion!", huh??....if i wanted your version of a straight man bitch you would have NO SAY!..

Which brings me nicely to the final group of people who surprisingly enough are usually the most receptive and intelligent of all!...STRAIGHT MEN!..yes that's correct .....
the good old heterosexual males are without a doubt more forward thinking of all!!!

I can usually count on them to boost my wound ego or lift my spirits and hand on heart give me the most amazing sexual stimulation in the world!! I do feel sorry for them when I see them with their girlfriend and looking my way with their puppy dog eyes asking telepathically to give them unimaginable sexual pleasure!!...or is that all in my imagination?...I HOPE NOT!?.

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A LIFESTYLE CONCEPT

2007-09-02T16:21:00.000+01:00

While flicking through pages of fashion magazines my eyes focused on an advert for a face cream proclaiming the usual wondrous magical properties which will change your life!To be truthful I never really believe any hype that is attached to any product or brand..well not until I have personally tested them myself!.
Do people believe these images of visually perfect men or women to be real?.. or maybe they understand that its all part of a add campaign designed to sell the product!..I have used Clinique for years and have been very satisfied with the entire range and its only recently that I began to think that maybe another product could banish away some of the years!,my skin is very healthy looking but I wanted an injection of something EXTRA!
Biotherm Man was always my fantasy boyfriend so naturally its his bed that I climbed into,well you dont know till you try do you?...after the initial purchase from selfridges and a few weeks later I can honestly say that I am extremely impressed with the products of Biotherm, which do live up to all the claims about skin improvement and regeneration of cells!.
I am no fool I did previously research them over the internet and read all the glowing consumer reviews...you would like to think that the consumer has actually written the review but the little cynical voice in my head says maybe,an insider from Biotherm has offered up their knowledge of the product instead!..never mind a change is good as a rest and whats £22.00 between wrinkles!

MANCHESTER GAY PARADE

2007-08-29T19:51:00.001+01:00

The weekend was by far the most productive work wise that I have had in a long time!.. Saturday I travelled to Manchester to watch the gay parade through the city centre...the sun tried to make an appearance bless her!!.. and the parade was very good..the essential float was throbbing away filled with lick-able lovelies teasing the un-suspecting public with their death deifying crotches and laser white smiles!.I was suffering from "one of my heads",but even that could not dampen my enjoyment at this spectacle !.there were even young children with whistles frantically blowing away ignorant regarding the whole ethos of the event! .
I also gained some attention from several likely lads in the crowd who were very willing to give me some personal whistle blowing if I needed some!...again health matters prevented me from taking up their kind offers!..
Sunday I awoke very early so as to undercoat two front road windows, one up one down.. the reason that I got up before the dew was chased off the grass(yeah ok dream on) was to prevent my work from being inspected by the big eyed neighbours from across the road, this can be upsetting when you hate heights at the best of times, but when you are trying to execute at straight line at one hundred feet on a ropey ladder in a one hundred mile a hour gale with nosey neighbour watching in the shadows , well its a hindrance really!
Then I preceded to lay a wonderful new carpet in my bedroom, a task I have never done in my life, so I approached it with some trepidation , I need not have worried because the event went ok, the worse part was emptying out the room and then putting everything back in place!…and wow was I done in!!
Monday again up early and set about to gloss the windows, which finished the job and the rest of the day I spent editing the short video that I took of the parade….a relatively relaxing day to end a very busy bank holiday weekend!.

Sorry for all the rain in the uk,its all my fault!

2007-07-03T19:11:00.000+01:00

What with the weather totally destroying my energy and my will to live,( none uk people WE ARE DROWNING IN A SEA OF HORRIBLE WATER)I didn't think that it could get any worse!..but yes it has ..a friend pointed out an article in the paper with the headline "FLOODS ARE GAYS FAULT!" the Bishop of Carlisle, Rt Rev Graham Dow blames new gay rights law for the current waterfall climate, and that we are reaping the consequences of our moral degradation! I sense he shares the godhatefags idiots view about homosexuality!
Do these fools not realise that their views are not shared by the gay enlightened masses who will only laugh at such a ridiculous claim! Its like godhatesfags idiots who defile the memories of the soldiers that are killed in Iraq by shouting at their funerals just because they do not share the same view as the USA who believe that gay people should also have the right to live a life of love just like straight people do!
These so called followers of god in my view are evil and ignorant about love and life in general and need to really understand Christianity and the way god really wants it to be presented and preached, in all honesty do these fools really think that god really would hate fags! NO!..OF COURSE NOT! UNDERSTAND THY MAN!
Get a life and an education you idiots its raining in the uk because its summer!! ;-(

Its all over

2007-06-21T20:48:00.000+01:00

I'M SOOO HAPPY!!!!!....why I hear you ask?, the light at the end of the tunnel of trash is approaching fast and within three weeks my visual and aural torture will be thankfully ended! The cheap, nasty ,intellectually challenged sorry to say related neighbours ,from The Jeremy Kyle Show ( that's low life on Jerry Springer if your none uk) are finally after FIVE LONG YEARS leaving my visual range and moving away to a land of microwave meals and white Stilleto Shoes!!!. I can't really take it all in, I feel like I've been washed in bleach and all the dirty filth of the last years have been washed off me!!
I bet some of you are thinking that i'm just dramatising and being over sensitive and maybe embellishing the tale, well no!, it was all the loudness of their lives ,the grand gestures of back street life being played out on a main road for all the world to see!!!, listen..one nighttime one of the daughters went screaming in a pair of knickers and nightie up the road drunkenly stumbling around and crying, flab flapping everywhere and she didn't really care who saw her and the next day appeared as if nothing had happened !! that's not right is it!?
Yes I'm glad its finally coming to an end....my only regret is all the raw material that they provided me with, which stimulate me to write blogs and create videos for youtube will not gone! ..never mind with my track record for attracting situations it will only be a matter of time before I will be ranting away again.....Stay tuned! ;-)

HOMOPHOBIA

2007-06-18T20:30:00.000+01:00

This is a blog post from Eto's myspace profile!

Homophobia

This text is from a deviantArt journal:

"I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn't have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most: Love.

Homophobia is sick...

I ATTRACT ATTENTION

2007-06-05T18:52:00.000+01:00

I am a magnet which draws attention whether it be positive or negative!..if I desire to
be un-seen it is I tell you impossible!..the reason why I am going on about it is that today while travelling by arriva bus service,slightly hungover and just a bit tired,I approached my point of destination,we stopped short of the bus stop because of temporary traffic lights which had been erected,so I remained seated till the bus started off again at which point I rang the stop bell!,oh my god!..the driver then angrily said to me why didn't I get off when the bus had stopped at the lights!..I ignore HIM!!!. He then preceded to stop short of the bus stop and say that I will have to get off there! opening the doors to let me off!.. I then walked off the bus,at this point he said under his breath "PRICK!".
I thought that you should never try to get off the bus in any location other than the designated points! and not just anywhere on the road!..feeling the way that I did and to be truthful I didn't really see any reason to be aggressive and impolite, which is why I didn't challenge his behaviour. I can safely say that I am proud of myself for being above such common behaviour and didn't react in a negative way.I AM A MUCH BETTER MAN THAN THAT INDIVIDUAL!
I have forgiven him and his sins and hope he will get PROFESSIONAL HELP!

2007-06-02T20:52:00.000+01:00

Here is a blog that jeffree star posted which seems relevant to my life and maybe yours , well you know what people tend to do when they get jealous and envious of others!..yep!. BITCH, BACK STAB AND CAT CALL!!

"it seems like I've been on the search for REAL people to add into my fake LA lifestyle. Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't wanna stab someone in the back or talk shit about all my friends because it seemed cool at the time.. You may think you know me from what you've "heard" or seen on the internet, but you can only know so much. Everyone judges and forms an opinion about me, about you, about anyone.. it's natural.. But just know you have NO idea what's underneath it all"..

A NEW IMAGE

2007-05-28T16:08:00.001+01:00

I am very pleased with this really interesting photograph which I created today, This is one of a few images that I shall call my HOMOLICKER series.

DISCO DANCER

2007-05-27T20:49:00.000+01:00

HEY EVERYONE CHECK OUT MY LATEST PHOTOGRAPH OF ME!!!" YOU BETTER WORK IT GIRL"!!!

WHY DO THE GAYS OF CHESTER HATE ME?

2007-05-27T19:42:00.000+01:00

What is wrong with the gay people of Chester!!!I have lived around the area of Chester for most of my life!...yeah I know it is a bit sad but there you go, slap my face if you will!!, but this has always troubled me,all or should I say most of the majority of the gay men in Chester walk around with an expression that says I HAVE A LONG SMELLY DOG EXCREMENT UNDER MY NOSE!!!! Why for gods sake do they insist that their facial features should resemble a shrivelled prune!.

Since coming out to the scene which consists of a couple of pubs one of which is as wide as a narrow boat and the other as tacky and trashy as britney spears in asda! the welcoming arms of the young and old involved in homosexual activities have remained peculiarly closed?. I'm not bitchy (do not regard my videos as reliable evidence) and I do have a fabulous personality, so im told, I'm also willing to sleep with any available men as long as they are rich, fashionable, creative and fabulous!! ....well not really, I do only sleep with people that are genuine, lovin ,know how to communicate AND HAVE A CERTAIN PORN STAR QUALITY!!;-)
So why is it that gay people in Chester would rather wear George at Asda than me! Manchester gays have no problem seeing me for the person that I am and accept everything that I can give and do want to know me!..and yes you have guessed it, I do spend a lot of my free time there and I regard my local as being down Canal St. Maybe they can see what Chester queers can not,anyway ,I have really given up trying and when i'm out shopping, if a mincer approaches I look through them! and I ceratinly don't want their cheap and nasties rubbing off on my shiny new Prada!

I am suffering!

2007-05-13T20:46:00.000+01:00

This weekend I suffered a lose!,one that leaves a hole in my life and that can never be filled by another....MP3 player!! Yes! my ipod died and had to be returned to its birthplace
where hopefully with loving care and a bit of TLC it will return into my loving arms and continue to bring me untold joys and great pleasure!..Can I live for two weeks without its sexy little body pulsating next to my heart?..

.I initially resisted to the hype surrounding the world of itunes/ipod believing that all Apples claims about revolutionising the world of music just couldn't be true!..Till six months ago I took a leap of faith and purchased a sliver 4gb ipod, instantly I became hooked with its easy manageability and style,but gradually month after month my little friend go sicker and sicker...after nursing him!..yeah him!!...he's a sexy horny dsquared model with attitude!! he did eventually regain functionability but how long can he go on..that was the question on my mind!!

So on Saturday he was returned to the ipod hospital for some TLC and good nursing!!...I will use an old Philips mP3 in the meantime but its just not the same!! :-(

This is a simple case of personality and intellectual differences!!!

2007-05-12T20:45:00.000+01:00

After finding out via the wonders of the open window that I'm called by my neighbours "snotty nosed Tim" in retrospect I do find that this remark is maybe rather fitting considering their limited vocabulary!.. I would have called myself an egotistical hyperbolist ! My tongue is always firmly in my cheek!, this is where people who don't know me think that I'm an arrogant homosexualist, this I'm not I can assure you, get to know me and you will realise this in next to no time. I can be a little selfish and self-absorbed but who can say hand on heart that at some time that this trait has never appeared momentarily at one time or another? This is a simple case of personality and intellectual differences!!!

2007-05-04T19:48:00.000+01:00

Jay Brannan with the wonderful voice,really lifts my spirit and his song writing skills are exceptional!!

over the garden fence

2007-05-03T20:54:00.000+01:00

I have just this minute overheard the drunken trailer park from next door referring to me as snotty nose tim!! OH MY GOD!!! moi snotty nose,if by that they mean educated widely read and creatively productive with positive energy and that im not a lazy ignorant alcoholic then YES I AM SNOTTY NOSED!!
I was feeling a little guilty about the remarks that I made in various video's that I have posted on web sites,but now well WATCH OUT I FEEL A BITCH RANT COMING ON!

tolerance

2007-05-01T19:24:00.000+01:00

Visualise this I'm what you could call a tolerant person,I check myself when a woman with a baby buggy ram raids my legs, I take deep breaths when some thoughtless individual loads their food onto the belt in the supermarket leaving me no room to load mine up because they have left their trolley alone side the belt so then I have to rush mine on!, but when it comes to the beauty challenged individuals and the brainless tittering drunken girlie's(next door relatives) who I might add can't walk in high heel shoes!,I know men who can do better!! who think that I need to listen to their humdrum voices proclaiming "ooh he's soo hot and she's such a tart,or lets do a txtathon? do I look nice in this"? eerrr NO! YOU LOOK FAT! THE MATERIALS STRAINING LETS LEAVE FAST YOUR ABOUT TO EXPLODE!!! yes I know i'm so tolerant and such a giving and loving individual!

Those giving times

2007-04-27T20:20:00.000+01:00

Living in Chester ,which is mainly a tourist city,and a very cramped one at that!,you rarely see anyone walking around in cutting edge fashion. No dsquared, no Helmut Lang, no small glimpse of a McQ , the only visible fashion squad is the testosterone fuelled Topman contingent!..not that I'm complaining I'm hardly a wannabe Jeffree Star!..NO! I'm very happy with my Diesel/dsquared wardrobe thank you !!. What I do love is those Topman changing rooms where the carefree horny straight boys parade around half clothed un-aware of my appreciating eyes!!They are such giving guys those straight boys ;-)

OUTRAGE!

2007-04-24T20:41:00.000+01:00

One Sunday morning I became overcome with the absolute desire to express my outrage at my rather fashion-less neighbours who appear to be devoid of any fashion, design and intellectual abilities! Their common behaviour is outstanding and they show no remorse at all,but really I started to video my statements as a reaction to the hanging garden of Babylon!! so named because the woman of the house had arranged five hanging baskets on one wall in a small backyard! this created a mass overdose of forms and totally looked pathetic!..How could she's do such a think and i'm ashamed to say she is a relative of mine!!!!!! :-0

paintings that influence me!

2007-04-16T20:00:00.001+01:00

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SOTHEBY’S NYC TO OFFER A MASTERPIECE BY JEAN-MICHEL BASQUIAT

New York City – On May 15, 2007, Sotheby’s New York will offer a masterpiece by Jean-Michel Basquiat, painted in the seminal year of 1981. Dazzling in its execution, Basquiat’s Untitled is an extraordinary work from the year when the artist first began to emerge as an enfant terrible of the downtown art scene in Manhattan. The painting, the most important and desirable work by Basquiat to appear at auction in recent memory, was gifted to The Israel Museum, Jerusalem, in 1985 by Barbara and Eugene Schwartz, New York, and is one of two major Basquiats from this period in the Museum’s collection. It is being sold by the Museum to create the Barbara and Eugene Schwartz Contemporary Art Acquisition Endowment Fund. It is estimated to sell for $6/8 million*.

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TOO MUCH

2007-04-03T20:11:00.000+01:00

Well after not drinking for well…since xmas I had a very big drink on Saturday night and woke up soon after falling asleep to the feeling of sickness!!.. needless to say I rushed to the toilet only not in time to use the toilet bowl expertly and missing the opening occasionally covered myself and the walls with the contents of my stomach which by volume contained a lot of whisky and very little food!! To say I was ashamed would be an understatement and highlighted in the morning when to my horror the bathroom mat was missing!! I could not remember removing it or where I had put it so I had to hunt it out till I eventually discovered it in the wash basket looking decidedly messy! The whole incident leaves me feeling ashamed and foolish and propels me further towards a life changing decision!?

2007-04-02T19:48:00.000+01:00

This is my latest photograph which I am really pleased with because of the colour and image relationship!

Life

2007-03-28T20:54:00.000+01:00

I just wanted to use this blog to visualise what I am thinking at the moment, to try and understand my thoughts. It seems that just recently ..well since my father died from cancer that the disease has gradually invaded my family with a passion and relentlessly changed the volume and its order!. The last 18 months my uncle has died from stomach cancer a distant cousin also has died from a brain tumour, his wife simultaneously contracted breast cancer and at the present is undergoing chemotherapy and radiotherapy!…and now my auntie who at the age of 86 is worried that she may also have stomach cancer!. well is it no wonder I refuse to create a pension scheme for myself when the odds are really staked against me living over the age of 65! You would think that I'm a miserable sod!. No!. or a Hypochondriac and eternally pessimistic!.. Not in a million years I live life the way I want to and at every opportunity I use the time to create art and explore and learn everything that I can! I'm none judgemental and as easy going as I can be in this world! I am not a push over or easily fool by people! But I greatly love people who have creativity and positive energy and experience life to the full, after all we only have one life!

mat pic

2007-03-24T21:17:00.001Z

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2007-03-24T20:13:00.000Z

This is a song about Matthew Shephard which I think is particularly poetic and I just thought that I would post it for no other reason that it is fabulous!!

I had a friend I never met,
just a shadow in the night.
And he asked me, "Are you in or out;
and will you join the fight?"

So, I listened through my deafness
to the sweetness of his song.
When I turned around to answer him
I discovered he was gone.

ch.

But the song drifts along
on the soft Wyoming wind.
It's a lullabye of love and hope
and the courage to begin
that quest for understanding
in the darkness of our souls.
No, I won't forget that melody
on the soft Wyoming wind.

So I went back to the drawing board
with a modicum of shame.
Ripped the bandage off the sores
and administered the blame.

Yes, I've lived a lie of silence,
with a blind eye towards the proof.
And a fear of ever facing
what I knew to be the truth.

ch.

I have seen the face of hatred,
it wears a thousand different masks.
Heard the voice of the self-righteous
preaching prejudice as fact.

Will I ever find the courage
to live completely free?
You know you need a guiding spirit
to find some inner peace.

Sometimes when it's late at night
I can almost see my friend.
A gentle smile upon his face
where the bloody tears had been.

And he reaches out to comfort me
saying, "It will be alright."
And he beacons me to follow him
from the shadow to the light.

ch.

lyrics: Richard Webster
Music:Rick Sirota

African Queen

2007-03-04T21:01:00.001Z

African Queen, originally uploaded by timslim1.

Feeling a little strange today maybe its because its now 3months since I had a drink!!

frosty forest

2007-02-16T20:53:00.001Z

frosty forest, originally uploaded by timslim1.

I am very satisfied with this pic which I took one cold Sunday morning,although I can't remember the settings that I used because its a relatively new camera,the effects are just what I wanted!..I have also printed out this picture and the image and colours are exact!

I give up!

2007-02-16T19:10:00.000Z

I really am beginning to think that I will always be Doomed to never co-exist emotionally intellectually and physically with anyone!ever!! I never try too hard I am never too needy never too emotional or over-bearing,I could be a blank canvas waiting to be made into a creation!..well!.. now I'm being a self-pitying fool because someone my age has already
become what he was always destined to become!?.....

Untitled

2007-02-14T20:45:00.001Z

Sylvester

The most fabulous voice to emerge from the glittering disco era,supremely capturing a time of great creativity!

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2007-02-08T19:23:00.001Z

Miss Donnie Darko

2007-01-26T20:15:00.001Z

Well here she goes again Miss Donnie Davis member of the group Love Gods Way posted on their web site a list of gay groups that if a child is exposed to will turn a child gay!No mention then of the positive effects that gay people have on the development of children and the psychological benefits to be gained from over exposure to homosexuals! go rant Miss Donnie Darko as I like to call her,she's the one exposing innocent children to hate and ignorance! here's the link to their web site if you want to check out this hatred for yourself! http://lovegodsway.org/GayBand

2007-01-25T20:18:00.000Z

Donnie Davis has more problems that the fact that he's repressing nature's wish! God didn't bring these idiot's into the world so they can project un-educated remarks to the masses which basically are only feeble attempts to hide their self-loathing! No wonder the church gets a bad name!

new year new me!?

2007-01-13T16:35:00.000Z

Well this is a new year and i'm feeling fresh and ready to go!!.well not quite..more like a feeling of being bashed over the head with numerous objects that leave me with various headaches! My lifestyle is slipping down to a pit of slime and there is no way I can climb out of this pit!..mmm..well that is a bit over-dramatic and gay..i'm not being youth minded by using the word gay in a shit way but i'm using it in a homosexual context!..I am gay after all!

2006-12-12T19:02:00.000Z

well i'm feeling a little strange today because everything is changing fast and I have no control over it what so ever!!!!